Date:	2005-10-15 22:18
Subject:	Epilogue: Charlie Thomas
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Mood:	accomplished

Charlie Thomas never had much luck with girls, his lowest point being the loss of his girlfriend, Lani, in a car accident. His crush on Janine Kishi fizzled after Janine announced her engagement and never returned even after she broke the engagement off. Charlie casually dated girls around Stoneybrook for awhile but began to get more and more depressed as the years went by and he was still alone. Charlie decided to return to Stoneybrook University, getting his Masters degree in history and secondary education. Charlie got a job teaching at Stoneybrook High School where he ran into his high school girlfriend, Sarah, still single and teaching English. Charlie and Sarah quickly realized that there were still sparks between them, and after a brief but intense courtship the two were married. Shortly after Sarah gave birth to a baby boy, Charles jr., followed by a girl two years later, Marie. In his spare time Charlie is usually found chauffeuring his wife and two kids around town.

Date:	2004-05-19 23:39
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Mood:	thoughtful

Hiking with Lauren was fun, even though I felt a bit guilty afterwards for making her hike for so long especially when it was obvious she didn't do it much often. Hope I didn't bore her too much with all my stories talking her to death being the tour guide. She's fun to hang out with, having opinions about everything we were talking about. It's great to have a deep conversation with someone, I didn't realised I miss it until recently.

Surprised to find Mallory working at the indoor rock climbing facility I go to. I've noticed a lot more guys come to sign up lately, all just to have a glimpse of her or trying to impress her but she never notices a thing, her head always buried in her work.

I've been feeling a lot calmer and at peace with myself and life. Everything that happened was suppose to happen. It didn't make sense back then but it sure does now. I don't regret everything I did in the past but some of the things I did do, I'm sure learning from it now.

christmas was a quiet family one, well as quiet as my family can be anyway, then on the 28th flew out to California to spend New Year with my frate brothers. it was great seeing them again. simon had a huge party at his parents house and like old times, a lot of boozes, hot chicks and more boozes. didn't plan to stay in california as long as i did, but Jason needed help with a surprise for his wife.

came home and found out that sam and abby broke up, he is real upset about it but pretending that it's cool. giving him his space even Cookie is smart enough to keep away from Sam too... wonder what happened? hope they both sort everything out because i think they make a good couple.

janine is still on my mind... she's always on my mind.

Date:	2003-12-22 18:12
Subject:	Last letter to Lani
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Mood:	content

To my dearest Lani

It's been nearly a year since the accident that made you leave me. I guess, I need to write this to you and tell you what has been happening in my life but I guess you know what's going on. I still miss you and there isn't a single day that goes by that I don't think about you... but lately it doesn't hurt as much when I do. When I think about you now, I don't feel any anger nor sadness, I'm remembering the happy time we had together and it makes me smile. I never thought that could ever happen... smiling when I think about you.

When you died, I felt like a part of me died with you and didn't think I could ever get over you. God, I felt so angry, lost and confused... how was I suppose to go on living without you? I needed you so much. I couldn't do anything eat, sleep, work or even live... it wasn't until Watson appeared at the front door. He talked me into going back to Stoneybrook where my family and friends are. I felt like I had nothing left in LA and went home. The numbness slowly faded away being so busy with the new office, family committments, buying a new house and meeting up with old friends and well... Janine Kishi.

Janine and I have known each other since we were literally babies, we lived across the road from each other. She's a pure genius, conservative, uses proper grammer and on the quiet side. Very different from you... but in a good way. I know if you both met in person you'd like her straight away. I hope you don't feel betrayed or cheated on, Lani, because I could never hurt you in any way. I cannot help having these feelings for Janine, it took me by surprise... I have to admit a plesant surprise. I don't exactly know what they are or understand them, but I do know that I would like to explore those feelings towards her. She makes me laugh, just like you did. But for me to do that, I have to let go of the past, but the past will always still be with me. The important part of the past. I'm grateful forever meeting you, getting to know you and falling in love with you. Thank you for teaching me to love life and especially love living it. I will always treasure the love you have given me because it's taught me to be the person I am today. I'll always love you and miss you, Lani.

Goodbye

Charlie

Date:	2003-12-21 00:12
Subject:	Puppy
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Mood:	amused

Sitting on my lap right now is the new addition to the Charlie-Sam Bachlor Pad is a very cute, happy, playful puppy name Cookie. Kristy bought is over earlier tonight and told me that it's a belated housewarming present. She found is on the side of the road on her way home from a sitting job, she knew that there is no chance that mom or Watson will agree to have another pet and convinced me that every household needs a pet... I told her that I have Sam, but then she put the puppy in my arms and I cannot refuse.

Date:	2003-12-14 20:27
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Mood:	confused

after the pageant, i went to have coffee with janine. we had fun, we talked about high school and how different our experience was. it was weird, we have known each other since we were babies and not really know each other... better late than never.

kept teasing her because i love how she reacts, she still blushes, which is really rare for a girl to do these days because nothing can shock them. she is so different from lani, lani was up front, blunt with a no nonsense attitude. she wasn't scared to take any risk... but look where it took her?

it's so easy talking to janine (when she is not using her extra long words) because she is so friendly and so sweet. her boyfriend is lucky to have someone like her.

sam got a job now and he is rarely going to be home, i like living by myself but i'm going to miss sam's company.

Date:	2003-12-09 19:18
Subject:	Winter BBQ
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	christmas carols - radio

It turned out to be a really great and surprising night. I really had fun, more fun than I had in a very long time, just hanging out with my old buddies and Janine Kishi.

Janine Kishi, man, has she changed. God, I bet I looked like a complete idiot when I opened my front door for Janine. Damn, she's HOT!. I was expecting a plain looking girl with glasses, plain looking clothes and her usual headband, instead i see this very gorgeous chick with stylish clothes, trendy hairstyle and damn... i'm impressed. She has changed too, she is more relaxed and she got along great with everyone. But I'm glad that she still a bit nerdy and a goodie two shoes, I find that charming. We spend most of the night talking to each other and catching up, she is full of surprises. She is a pool shark!... there is definitely more to Janine Kishi then anyone can ever imagine.

I still miss her.

Sam has been running around doing 1001 things at once and I'm worried that he might have a nervous breakdown or something... good thing he has Abby to keep him sane though. They make a good couple, I'm starting to get to know her better since she is over here a lot. sam's crazy about her, it's kind of amusing seeing my brother getting all puppy-dog eyes with that silly grin of his whenever her name is mention or when her name is mention. never thought i see the day when i see the my brother-the-player fall for someone.

David Michael stayed over and we had a Thomas brothers pizza night, it was really fun. I miss hanging out with DM. Didn't realised how big he gotten till he confessed to us that he has a crush on a girl and wants to ask her out. Sam and I agreed to take him shopping to buy some 'cool clothes' to impress her.

i miss her.

sarah called today to have lunch. she is saying that she may leave her fiance because she still has feelings for me. i've told her that what happened at the party was an accident but she says that it happened for a reason. yeah, the reason was that i was drunk and i was missing her.

Nannie dropped Emily and Max over my place this afternoon because she had to take David Michael to the dentist after school. Emily is taking her role as big sister very seriously and my new little brother is so cute, he follows Emily everywhere. Emily reminds me so much of Kristy when she was younger!

We spend the afternoon drawing, Emily drew Sam with a bucket over his head and Max drew... not sure what, but it's very colourful. Both insist I put it on the fridge door. I like the picture with Sam with a bucket over his head.

Sam has gone to pick David Michael up because he is staying the night, he wants to spend time with men... he rang me up this afternoon and says he wants to talk.

How did I get myself talked into playing Santa?!?!

I slept with Sarah. Fuck. She is getting married in a month to this really cool guy. It happened at the housewarming party. What a party... just like college, I don't remember half the night. I got pretty fucked, I just remember drinking a lot with some old high school buddies and things got pretty wild. According to Sam, I was dancing on the table with someones girlfriend stripping and her boyfriend was really upset and things got pretty much out of control and Sarah had to take me somewhere to calm me down. And she did!!

I got a email from Sarah this morning saying that she still have feelings more me... how do I tell her that I don't feel the same?

Date:	2003-11-09 19:28
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Mood:	angry

I miss her so much. I miss hearing her laugh, seeing how her smile light up my world, the sparkle of mischief in her eyes when she is up to something crazy, I miss her teasing me of being such a goodie-two-shoes, I miss her hands all over my body, how she hogged all the blankets at night, miss her breathing on my shoulder when she sleeps, I just miss her so much...

WHY DID IT HAPPEN?!!! WHY?!!!

It doesn't make sense.

I told everyone the reason I came back was because I miss Stoneybrook (which I do) but the real reason why I came back because it hurts so much to stay in LA.